“This is for all the people I’ll never meet. This is for the person I might have kissed had I taken a different subway line on Saturday and the person I might have been if that boy hadn’t broken my mother’s teenage heart. This is for the people I would have loved if last winter hasn’t been so cold and for the city I would have called home if I had written haikus on napkins and carried pens in dress pockets and in the knots of my hair. This is for who I was, who I am, who I might be. This is for you.”—Camryn Pulaski (via jarrodis)
Do you know what the hardest thing for me to except in life is? Its that my sister got me Ed Sheeran tickets but because she’s an asswipe chose not to give them to me.
And she had the audacity to casually slip it in to conversation at a family dinner, which was terrible enough as it was because I hate everyone and the fact that they like to come over and play happy families but make rude remarks whenever they feel like it. Go to your own house and play some shitty game on your ipad but act like you really have a busy life.
Like what the fuck, what have I personally done to you, it’s not my fault my family fell apart, it’s not my fault.
And all she had to say when I was holding back fucking tears was “shit happens”
YEAH YOU KNOW WHAT, NEXT TIME YOU COME OVER AND ACT LIKE WERE ALL FUCKING HAPPY AND LOVELY AND A FAMILY I’LL SHIT IN YOUR FOOD AND WHEN YOUR CHOKING AND GASPING FOR AIR I’LL STARE DIRECTLY IN TO YOUR EYES AND SAY “oh well shit happens”
ughhhhhhhhhh, I have an english exam tomorrow which I know nothing for and I have work in half an hour but no work uniform.
I also have two exams both on wednesday BOTH which I know very little about.
ugh I just need a fucking pause button to get things done.
But on the bright side I saw one of my best friends last night after a while and we stayed up all night talking and smoking, sneaking out and getting very stoned and I’ve missed her very much.
And because my life has been such a mess recently (well actually it’s been a fucking mess for quiet a while now, but recently I think I’m losing my mind) my friend is picking me up and taking me out for ice cream and he’s just so funny I know that life is going to be marvellous after I see him. Though I’ve seen quiet a lot of him recently and this is not good at all.